it is what it is

soooo life. its what it is i guess. i dont have anything else to say about it. theres the good...then the bad... i suppose im growing up enough to see that you just have to deal with both sometimes. i was having a great week......even at work..........even at school..... and then i dreamt about her. Melissa ... MY lissa i mean. i dreamt about her.........what a beautiful nightmare. i read the letters we wrote each other that i had forgotten somewhere under my bed. how i told my other friends how close we were.....and i quote " that is why me and Melissa Ann are Best Friends.....we have been places together that you have only seen in your nightmares" and that is the truth.... and by god i miss her so much...... i dont think the world will ever be the same again..... i just......we were tough....i was tough when she ouldnt be and vise versa....and that was my counterpart....lissa was one of the few soulmates i had made in the world........that counterpart is gone and im left feeling weary, tired and weak. will this ever be okay again?